Flame of Life

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Flame tree
Living this existence as in a flame with Passion, Love, and Energy...
Why are we not living this gift of Life free of bondage?
Why do we loose that boundless energy, lust for explorations we had as children?
Why routine, repetitions and mere daily doings rob us of living fully like a flame?
We can give many reasons but the question remains as what do we do with all the days and years passing?
Being new to moments, bright eyed, full of wonder, questioning, enquiring....as children always asking "Why"...
Why do we grow dull is the question we need to ask before taking our last breath with regrets!

Praise of Not Knowing

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We have a vast dictionary of words we have given to all that we have encountered. Giving a false sense of “Knowing” as we keep on adding, adding words …even there is no true “Knowing” within the campus of our consciousness.

Undeniably much of this “Knowing” has offered this living less toil, more food, longer life.

Only the last 200 years world population has grown 8 fold. Our eight billion demand resources our finite planet can not provide as our insatiable demands have equally grown with manipulation of our deepest traits by commercial manipulation whilst our education failed to rise equally to our awareness of our inner selves.

With loss of hope for a future, we’ve lost culture to define a future so dire that denial sets in a paralysis or search for “Outer Spirits” who had predicted our failure and will save us from ourselves through “Eternal Love”

Then there was a new mutation of a virus for which there was no cure. Suddenly the “Not knowing” froze all activity. Fear covered the planet. All that “Experts” knew was to keep populations locked up. Some large families in small quarters where violence became rampant. Millions lost livelihood, governments stuttered and revealed their incompetence in the face of an invisible entry into our lives, they named Covid 19.

Suicide amongst even the youngest, the more resilient who are actually the least in danger grew exponentially!

All that Knowledge humanity had gathered created this loss of our biodiversity, global warming with catastrophic natural disasters, and we still rely on a faster vaccine, miracle medication whilst we have destroyed all cures in the natural world we so blindly have destroyed.

This is written on this late night in the praise of “Not Knowing”

Words

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No words or poetry or any language would convey such perfume!

 

Shell of human Consciousness

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Banging away within the walls of the “known” until we bleed to destruction.

What does it take to hatch out?

Centuries have passed with wise men’s words set in print or stone upon which we built monuments to worship the words; build walls against unbelievers or kill to defend…not knowing what!

This puzzle has rattled about profusely building wider and tighter webs within our shell of consciousness strangulating all of life!

Forgive the “not knowing” “for they do not know what they do!”

Who is left to forgive when this one “Knowing” in it’s not “knowing” explains all to cinder?

This morning wondered why this shell holds us tight within it’s chaos.

 what does it take to crack and fly out soaring in freedom, one with all in love?

There was a poem written long, long ago by one other who had also pondered on this “Why”

Yes, passions of flesh, longings, angers, ambitions and jealousies, all that range of human emotion has a high price to give up!

It nourishes us and gives this life the only meaning we have learnt to have!

This,

This inner world is all we’ve known to have.

The price of freedom is the unknown ticket we’re not willing to buy!

Though longing finds paths through psychedelic experiences which wear off by leaving images of further longings to imagination!

And so we play every game not to crack our hardened shell!

As in death, the not knowing is the fear that shuts us out.

Living

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Once you are connected to wholeness in silence,

Once you feel trapped in frenzy rush of human noise,

Once you feel temperatures rising,

Once you feel desperate fight for existence,

Once you watch humans in restless search for meaning,

Once you see the painted faces, all the bodies screaming “look at me”

Once you have heard the silent cries.. loneliness, yearnings and dreams…chasing, chasing…searchings..

Your tears flow, your words fail, nothing left to convey..

be silent, be still, be the Love that was always there holding you between the earth and heavens upon which you are standing…nothing to do…just be witness to the wholeness that holds.

Summer night at 4am

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It was 4 am, now 5 and the mind had been awakened, questioning, reasoning, erasing, curious, had been there before, as the “time laps” camera speeding up the unfolding of a bud to a full blown wild petals of colour, a thousand petals, breathing out perfume, and was drunk and forgot the world that unfolded in perpetual movement where man made his entrance, naked, unaware, being this perpetuality of ever expanding, nameless movement 

 His nakedness, felt this vulnerability,
 his awareness, his fears gave birth to his consciousness
And so he began naming of the stuff his body could feel,his fears, impulses made demand of him.

He did not know that he too was the universe, there was no separation but in his nakedness feelings became his thoughts.
And that was real if not relative, but real to his reality of survival, he named it as such as innate as he was there, he feared his not being there, he was alive to his consciousness, strifes…so his vocabulary grew he became the centre of the vastness he explained as that too necessitated his survival, that too was in the throw of the timeless movement, it was too late to throw the baby out with the bathwater……..

all grew in a flash, yet that was too a word caught in time, the movement was timeless but within timelessness there was man who started his play, Stage one, scene one…in which time was caught to create stories to survive as he was there a throbbing thing, now expanding from within as from without where time did not exist.

Religion

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You good “Intellectual ” people, concerned with human lives living a meaningful life in today’s complex society…
You have been brain draining for and against “Religion” as though it was a “Thing”
I listened carefully and heard arrows flying hay-away flying off the bullseye.
 
The “Thing” is a word given meaning for what was beyond meaning. Yet we needed a word to have a reference point.
 
One could write endless books about a Mango tasted first hand, once lost, innocent in primordial jungle.
No matter how many centuries that tale, descriptions of that shape, taste, aroma, delight, had been reported, re written, disputed, referred or murdered over, No one could or would have understood what the “First Man” found, tasted and was nourished by.
For that matter all others who came across that fruit and elaborated on that essence,would or could not have managed to convey the experience.
 
Human experience being limited, yet his need for security and meaning unlimited, he grabs at all straws he finds to survive the sufferings of existence.
He has indeed given his energies, talents, wealth to create magnificent forms of art and architecture, ceremonies to worship that taste that quenched the longings that 
“First Man” tasted.
No matter where and who started his story and what shapes it took at different periods of human history, with growing followers longing to be quenched by the same, began to worship the tale without having had the taste.
Yet his longing and desperation, on his knees, begged and prayed at that alter and walked out light hearted without having had that first taste.
Would we analyse man in the realm of his mental, physical make up to understand why his heart was indeed lightened by that worship?
Would we deny him of living a second hand life of illusions and ignorance as our latest science proves him wrong?
Scientific Knowledge itself is in continuous search.
Did Jesus not refer to the impossibility of the camel entering the eye of the needle?
 Mohammad saw the worship of forms and asked all forms in figures to be broken as they were only “Representation” of the formless.
His followers created magnificent geometric forms, built different and wondrous places to worship.
Buddha was wise enough not to give “It” any form or name. 
Yet Buddhist travel long and queue in reverence to view a small yellow object supposing it to have been a tooth of his!
These days we see smiling Buddha representation sold at every 10 cent store. Such objects are placed at alters of today’s “Enlightened” It is chick to belong to that clan.
“Religion” is a word for the word and form less.
Living had necessitated something beyond the “material”.
Man being very creative, clever, mischievous, envious, hierarchal, has run away in “Time” and “Thought” to prove his point at any cost to any who differed from his “Belief” Belief had become the very rock of his existence.
Indeed  humanity has gone through centuries of murder on behalf of his “belief”. Yet never questioned what “Belief” stood for.
This “Modern Man” who feels himself well above old stories, has found new stories.
he has had new leaders who showed him new tricks of the mind.
Surely if you sat in a soundproof room, repeated any word, gazed at candles or a Mango, went in a trance, would also experience what the man who sat at the alter and wept at the feet of his god, would have felt.
 
Would we not want to examine that very question of ways, methods, rituals,  substances that give that “kick”, be it momentarily, to have that experience of something beyond his “lsolation”?
 
If we are really interested to go beyond, we have to question the root of this need.
Not intellectually. 
Only find the space to walk fearlessly alone with that question in nature, stay there stay starved as no person has the answer,
You may just come across that fruit that will nourish your search.
You will not be the one who can convey to another scent of a jasmine.
  We have arrived at that point of human evolution to get this for himself.

You are passing my mind

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 Life is rushing by, 

not knowing whereto, from where…at times touch glories, then the dark,
Some times  helpless watch suffering
sometimes just holding gives comfort without words…
This timeless land where humans are caught, having passed the rout where no signpost stood…
can not yell back, can not tell a story…no one listens, the winds have blown all dust away,
 They keep on going, settling dust as they go, 
as if no one’s been there before … 
Don’t call it Karma, don’t give it a name, 
it is the nameless that stands in your gaze, beauty, ecstasy and love,
 
I’m laying on my back, curtain blowing, a pleasant breeze , 
it’s 14:45, and the sun is burning high on stones bellow at 33…but it reads more like 36c….
I hear a few chirping of tiny birds about the Eucalyptus trees…
There is a silence in this timeless hour…
You were just passing through my mind.

Dancing

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This

breath

 throbbing fragile beauty

 integral part

Is the whole

our lives

dancing

light-footed

perpetual movement

 motions the Universe

Held in passion in love

is

this life we live

Pondering in May

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Life begins with a sense of longing for itself.

This longing is sought out wherever it enters out of time, transfixed gaze of the wild eye, movement of the slithering snake, lizard, or that energy that electrifies you from some beings.
 
There is no location where you can grasp at as lightning itself……it is a spark that enters you and you are stunned, you want to hold on…. but can not and have no word, even an utterance on it’s behalf…it is the longing for all the mysteries of being, being in and out of it simultaneously…grasping at what you can not for you are itself…and words fall between your clumsy fingers like ash.
 
We go astray when we are overwhelmed in that solitude for which we long for and may be the ”why” some who feel that longing the most, are sensitive the most, are reaching out in substances to feel momentarily some spark of that that they long for and so as grasping at thin air that demon of addiction gets the grasp of such fragile souls…a few, by some miracle are saved and find alternatives to their search.
 
In my personal life, as long back as i remember this feeling was strong…it was desperate to be dead to that connection and so utterly, shockingly exhilarated by such moments that the not knowing or understanding, or simply need of holding on to it would be shattering…As futile as grasping to hold this thin air of breath itself.
 
Here, mostly alone, there is the luxury of the wealth of silent nature’s offerings…(Suddenly the Golden Oriole began to sing his sweet golden song)…
Then there is the miracle of internet through which connections to vast variety of people talking, expressing themselves is available.
 
It is clearly noticeable, possibly even more clearly so as a distant observer, to watch those who’s entire manner is synchronised with their depth’s of being or in contrast to others so consumed by construed culture that you only see a tragic marionette.
 
These thoughts have circled my mind as to why some people get through me.
 
We are primitive to what we can understand of ourselves as we have no vision of our evolutionary growth as in a movie, running on the screen of our minds.
If only we did, then, may be we might get glimpses of our impulses, searches, longings and despairs.
Then may be we might understand that we all grew out of those elementary sediments of ancient oceans, grew together, taking various paths to wings of flight, fins to oceans or feet to stand this earth.
Gravity holds us tight to stand this unquenched thirst for longing to connect, once again to the origins of creation…an oxymoron.. our longings lead to creation of life in the ecstasy of sexuality.
If it were not for the climax there would be only frustration but then when the climax is devoid of that connection is the bloody smashing of bodies falling from great heights to brutal rocks which all addictions even in this act leave humans desperate and separate from life.
 
Is this why with all sophistication of our minds we have sexuality, blatant or subliminal entering every advertisement barging into our lives? Is this the force of life longing for itself whilst being itself?
 
The hills are pink with these fragile flowers just sprouting out, daringly, without a care for just a while to dry up and return to the ground upon which they grew.
Is this the ecstasy of being?